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New Layout!

What do you think? I think it's purdy. I like the fairy. ^^

I still don't like the fact that I can't have comments, but at least I have a tagboard. I expect you all to use it. I will be very disappointed, and also forced to go back to a BORING layout, if you do not use it. *glares menacingly*

Okay...I have nothing to talk about and nothing to do. I'm probably just going to go to bed, seeing as how I have to work ALL DAY LONG tomorrow.

I can't wait until the 4th of July!

I Want Roast Beef

I suddenly got this random craving for roast beef. I don't know why - I wasn't even thinking about food. But suddenly I'm like, "I want some roast beef!" I like it when my mom or my grandma makes it in the crock pot, with carrots and onions and potatoes. Yeah, that's the best. Maybe I'll ask Mom to make it sometime.

Anyway, that was not the purpose of this post - to talk about roast beef. Technically, this post has not purpose, which is why roast beef wasn't the purpose.

I'm just bored and I ate jellybeans so I can't go to sleep at the moment. You know, too much sugar and all. Though I really DO need to go to bed, because the last two nights I've been short-changed on sleep (my fault) so I need to get decent rest tonight.

We're going on a picnic tomorrow! I'm so excited, I've been wanting to go on a picnic for AGES. We're going to a park in Fredericksburg where some friends of ours' grandpa is playing with the band he's in. They're really good. So we'll have good music to listen to, besides having good food to eat. Ha, two of my favorite things, both at one time! Maybe we'll play some Frisbee, too - that would make it even better!

Wow, I'm definitely over-tired and over-sugared-up.

And hungry.

I want some roast beef.

I Think I Am Going Crazy

WARNING: Yet another stupid, venting, "I-am-so-lonely," feeling sorry for myself update. You have been forewarned.



What is WRONG with me? I mean, we all know that I have already decided not to like anybody (guys, I mean, of course) right now because I simply don't need the added stress, what with work and school. I mean, this was a conscious and purposeful decision that I made. For the most part I have stuck to that decision.

So why am I sitting here feeling like I'm going to die of loneliness? Why am I IMing Chris, but feel like I'm the only one on the planet? Why do I want to drive all the way to Williamsburg just because of the cute waiter named Daniel at Outback (who, by the way, is one of the best-looking guys I have ever seen, and extremely nice, with an adorable smile and, according to the people I was there with, he liked me too - ok, done gushing).

I know God is in control, I know that He's working in His own time. I know I shouldn't go out with someone just because everyone else is doing it. I know that there is some guy out there for me. I know that I need to just wait on God's timing and it'll be worth it. I know all this.

But it doesn't make me feel better! I'm still so stinking lonely it's not even funny. I'm not angry or upset or anything really, just lonely. I guess it's hard not to be when it seems like everyone around you has someone. I just want someone special to talk to and hang out with. I just with a special guy would come along and sweep me off my feet. (I know I don't need that right now, but that doesn't mean I don't want it to happen.)

Sometimes I just get so impatient.

Grr...now I'm crying. This was a bad idea. I don't know if I'll even post this. Do I really want to put it out there for the whole world to see? Then again, why not? I've never had any secrets from the world before, why start now? But I still think it was a bad idea to even type all this stuff up. I should've just ignored it, maybe it would go away.

I think it's time for bed.

Going Somewhere?

Let me just start off by saying that the only reason I am even writing this right now is because Chris told me to. It's his fault. Blame him.

Okay, let's see what has happened since I last posted...

I had an absolute blast in PA. The wedding was great, Kristen's family is awesome. And I definitely think they should all come down here sometime. And no, I did not meet any cute boys (just thought I should note that since everyone at work, and even my parents asked me that).

Recently I have decided that I like manga. For one reason, it is one form of art that I can actually do - meaning I can actually draw it somewhat decently. For another reason, Rouroni Kenshin is awesome. Thirdly, Howl's Moving Castle. End of story. Manga is awesome.

Ditto for sudoku.

I've been working, but not hard. High school graduation where I live is this Friday night, though. So just about half of the girls I work with are taking Friday off, some are taking Saturday too. Which means more hours those days for me. I'm not complaining - school registration starts in a little over a month.

I have a story idea floating around in my head. It's just a matter of catching it and putting it down on paper.

You know I haven't been watching the news lately when a) I don't know there's a tropical storm, b) let alone that it's about to hit Florida TOMORROW, c) Let alone that it's named Alberto. Yeah, it was interesting when I found out tonight. Wish I were there.

Well...Tomorrow I'm going to Busch Gardens. Guess that's all for now...

Happy now, Chris? Now make Martin update his blog ;)

VACATION!

Okay everyone, I am leaving tomorrow (EARLY) for my almost week-long vacation in Pennsylvania. I am going to visit my penpal Kristen, whom I have not met yet, and I'll be there for her wedding on Saturday. So I don't know if or when I'll post again, or comment on anyone else's blog, or be online to IM, or check my email. According to Kristen, we're going to be busy. ;)

I'M EXCITED!

And kinda nervous because I've never been there or met anyone there before.

BUT MOSTLY EXCITED!

Ciao!

Scariest Moment of my Life

Yeah so my stalker definitely asked me out the other night. For those of you who don't know (probably all of you) there's this freaky guy who comes into Vinny's about once a week. He's always hitting on the girls and asking questions about the ones who aren't there - mainly me - and just generally being creepy. So the other night he came in to pick up his usual: fried calamari with extra sauce, to go. I had to cash him out because I was the only one up front. For real, I was nervous, because the guy is just a creep (Mom says maybe he just doesn't realize that it's not generally considered polite to ask someone you don't know if they have a boyfriend, etc. - I think she's being too nice.)

Anyway...our conversation went like this.

ME: Good evening, how are you? *thinking, oh great, not him*
STALKER: Good, and you?
ME: I'm fine. Can I help you?
STALKER: Yeah, I needed to pick up my to go order: fried calamari -
ME: It's not quite ready, do you want to go ahead and pay?
STALKER: Sure. *handing me money while I'm trying desperately not to touch him* So how have you been doing lately? *talking as if we're best of friends*
ME: Fine.
STALKER: That's good. You in school?
ME: I'm out for the summer.
STALKER: What are you studying?
ME: *handing him his change* Liberal arts.
STALKER: Oh okay. Do you know what you want to do?
ME: No, not yet. Let me go check on your food for you. *trying to escape into the kitchen*
STALKER: *calling as I'm starting to walk away* Is your boyfriend in school?
ME: Not right now. (reason being: I don't have a boyfriend. But stalker-dude does NOT need to know that!) *I go to the kitchen and get his food and bring it back* Here you go, sir, have a good night!
STALKER: Thank you. What's your name? *as if he didn't already know. Please note that he has asked about me BY NAME when I was not there*
ME: Samantha.
STALKER: Nice to meet you, I'm "such-and-such" (shows how important it was to me, I can't even remember!). Would you be interesting in going out to dinner with me sometime?
ME: *not sure I heard right* I'm sorry?
STALKER: Would you be interested in going out to dinner with me sometime?
ME: *stunned, not sure how to respond* No, no thanks. Have a good night. *walking away*

Yeah, that was definitely extremely scary for me. I went into the kitchen and had to sit down, I honestly was feeling somewhat dizzy and lightheaded. That was my interesting experience this week...

GUESS WHAT?!

Today, I bought a Sony PSP! *faints* I've been wanting one ever since they came out, so today I used some of my vacation money - the money that I would have used if Sue came up, since she's not - and bought one! I'm so excited! I don't have any games yet, but I plan to get some tomorrow.

If anyone knows of good ones, let me know! :)

Final Grades

Okay here's my final grades for the semester:

SPA 102 - B
PSY 201 - A
HIS 122 - A
ENG 242 - A
HLT 116 - B

I have to confess, not as good as I wanted, but good enough I suppose. I'm still trying to figure out how I got a B in Spanish instead of an A. I'm not sure how that works out - course, it might have helped if the teacher had handed out a syllabus so that we would know what the grading scale was like. Then I might have a better idea. But oh well.

That's one of the main things I don't like about public school vs. homeschool is that you can't see your grades and figure them all out yourself at the end of the year. *sigh* Oh well, hopefully my Spanish teacher next year will be better anyway. Anyone know of a good one at J. Sarge?

Oh, I got a scholarship check in the mail today. Guess how much it was for?!?!?!

$950.00!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*jumps up and down*

Busch Gardens

Yay! Yesterday and today Dad and I went to Busch Gardens Williamsburg - 'cause my mom and sisters are in New Hampshire, but we couldn't go because of work, and school for me. It was a BLAST. It was cold today, though, like in the fifties and with a wind blowing and some rain. I was wearing shorts and a tank top because it was supposed to be warm like it was yesterday. :-P

Here's a pic of me:


I was sitting in a pretend grape-squishing-bucket-thingie in the Italy area. And yes, I was freezing. But, like I said, it was fun anyway.

However, tomorrow is back to the real world, and I am going to be working a TON this week. That's good, it really is, but of course I am lazy and don't want to work! lol

Confuzzled Thoughts

I feel really confused tonight. Just general confusion. I'm even confused about what I'm confused about. If you figure that last sentence out, you're just as confused as I am! ;-D

Life is confusing I guess.

Su isn't coming up this summer. I guess I didn't really expect it - I was hoping, but not expecting, which is what I tend to do with things of this nature until they become definite (i.e. the tickets have been purchased, etc.). So it was a disappointment, but not as big as it could have been.

Maybe I'll use the money to buy a PSP. Or maybe I'll do something totally more responsible and save it for school.

Probably the latter.

My sister is officially 16. Makes me feel old.

I have a Spanish test tomorrow that I definitely have NOT studied for. But the strange thing is, I don't really care right now. Aside from my final, it's the last test of the semester.

Okay, I'm gonna stop rambling now.

Love Song and Last Words

Hmm...Interesting...I've never heard this song before, but now I want to.

Your Love Song Is

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing by Jack Johnson "Maybe you've been through this before But it's my first time so please ignore The next few lines cause they're directed at you I can't always be waiting, waiting on you I can't always be playing, playing your fool" You've been waiting for love, and you're not going to wait any longer!

What Love Song Are You?

HAHA! SO ME!!

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"I dunno, press the button and find out."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

More Answers to More Questions!

What calendar theme do you have? I have a scrapbook calendar that I got for Christmas. Yeah, it's definitely NOT decorated.

Favorite Bible verse? I have several...Romans 8:28 and Romans 12:2 and basically the entire book of Ephesians

Have you got a picture of yourself in your room? Yeah, a pic of me and Susen, and a collage thing of my life that my Mom made for me

Do you prefer night or day driving? Both. As long as I've got good music to listen to and I can roll the windows down, I'm happy. If I'm driving in the rain, I like to have a book on tape. :-D



Some interesting things that happened to me today: I had a bug crawl across my foot this morning, I drove the fastest I have ever driven in my entire life, I got educated on the subjects of tattoos and body piercings and underwear, and I braided my short hair for the first time.

Guys Are Weird

I have officially decided that guys are weird. I actually decided this a long time ago, but am just reaffirming my belief.

There's this one guy at work who only speaks about 5 words of English, and he's constantly just...hovering. That's the only way I can think of to describe it. Whenever I turn around, he's there. And he's always calling me pet names (in Spanish) and basically just making a nuisance of himself. And he does this with all the girls, not just me. I guess he's nice, but he just doesn't know when to leave us alone!

And this other guy at work, the new dishwasher dude named Tyrone asked me for my number. That was pretty much the only time I'd ever talked to him except when we were introduced. Here was the extent of our conversation...

Him: *mumbles something about there being a lot of dishes*
Me: Yeah, it was busy tonight
*A few seconds of silence*
Him: Do you live around here?
Me: Yeah, I live about ten minutes away *pointing* that way.
Him: Oh. Do you have a boyfriend.
Me: (By this point I knew what was coming.) *sigh* No.
Him: Do you mind if I get your number?
Me: Well...I'd have to get to know you better first.
Him: Yeah, that's what I mean.
Me: No, BEFORE I give you my number.
Him: Oh. That's cool.

Yeah, that's pretty much ALL we ever said to each other. Except he might have asked me if I'm in school, I'm a little foggy on the details.

So I guess it's common practice for guys to ask girls they've just met for their numbers? It doesn't really make sense to me, though. I mean, honestly, I know nothing about him! He could be a serial rapist or murderer or both! Why would I give my number to someone I hardly know? *shrugs* I dunno, it's never made sense to me.

But then, not many things do.

Forget Mr. Right, I Want a Mr. Darcy

I just finished watching "Pride and Prejudice." It was awesome - I knew it would be. I need to read the book again. I need to BUY the book. I think that's what I'll do. Next time I'm at the bookstore, I'm gonna buy it.

Anyway, to answer the "Darkest secret" questions so far:

Most embarrassing moment? I honestly can't think of any. I'm constantly running into things, so that hardly fazes (sp?) me anymore. I get the most easily embarrassed when I say something really stupid or out of place - but even then I can't think of one particular time.

Favoritest song ever? Just one? How 'bout a list - This I Promise You, Canon in D, Moonlight Sonata, among others.

Movie you need the Kleenex for? Titanic and The Return of the King. Umm...I think that's it...

Any bad habits? (nail biting, knuckle cracking, etc) I don't bite my nails, but if they break, I peel them off. Also I sometimes chew on the inside of my cheek, and Gramma says that I could get cancer from that. Those are the only ones I can think of.

I like answering these questions - ask me more :-D lol

Dark Secrets

So, since Chris divulged one of his deepest, darkest secrets (and i laughed at him) he told me I should post my dark secrets.

The only problem is, I can't think of any.

So how about this - you guys ask me questions and I will answer them. Ask me as many questions about anything you want. So that way, you'll find out stuff you want to know, and then people can see that Samantha really doesn't have any dark secrets.

I Love My Friends!

I just wanted to tell you guys thank for leaving me comments! I love you all! *big huge hug* It's such a comfort to know that you are here for me, even when I'm being stupid. :-D

So Clearly Confused

So life is simple. It is on the surface anyway. I mean, anyone who looked at me would probably go, "Wow, she's got it together!" As a matter of fact, I've heard that (or variations of it) said to me more than once. And yeah, I guess everything's going okay.

So why do I still feel lonely? Why am I still crying myself to sleep? Why can't I just let things go? Why can't I figure out what I want to DO with my life?

I try so hard to do what I'm supposed to do - get a good job, go to school, save my money, be a good friend. Not that I do it out of duty, but because it's what I WANT to do. It's who I am. But sometimes, when I get a free moment to be bored of the repetitiveness, I think - really think - about it all. And it's like, okay, I should definitely have a clear goal. I should know what I want to do with myself. I've got all this going for me, what am I going to do with it?

I'll tell you what I want to do - fall in love, get married, and have a family. But they don't give degrees in the study of falling in love, getting married, and having a family, so I have to think of something else to spend my time and money on.

Then I get to thinking - what if I never meet the right guy? What if I never do fall in love? Where does that leave me? I can't imagine it. I honestly cannot imagine myself simply following a career. I mean, I could if I had to, but that's definitely NOT my first choice. I've never even been on a date - how many 19-yr-olds have never been on a date? Not that it's necessarily a bad thing, but you know...I just get lonely sometimes.

I just want Mr. Right to show up. I guess. I dunno, I guess that's my problem. But I don't want to settle for anything less. I don't want to settle for Mr. Almost-Right just because Mr. Right isn't showing up fast enough. But I DO want this loneliness to go away.

God is good and wonderful and gracious, but His timing is not our timing, and sometimes I get impatient. It's something I have to work on.

I guess to sum it up - today I feel like the one and lonely.

Yay a quiz!

1) What stickers do you have on your car?
Zip. I have a magnet that says "Caution: Unsocialized homeschoolers on board" though.

2) What posters do you have in your room?
A Return of the King poster. And a LOTR poster calendar. :-D

4) If you could drink anything right this second, what would it be?
((Question three is mysteriously gone)) Strawberry daiquiri from Outback.

5) Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Actually no!

6) What’s your job position called?
Waitress.

7) What size ring do you wear?
6ish

8) Do you own a camera phone?
Yes. I hardly ever use it, because I got it for the phone, not the camera. But I do have one.

9) When's your birthday?
January 3.

10) What was your school's mascot?
What mascot?

11) What’s your favorite bottled water?
Dasani is the BEST!

12) What's the next concert/show you're going to and when?
Who even knows.

13) What were you doing at 9 pm last night?
Getting ready to leave work.

14) What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
Hot cocoa :-D

15) Do you exercise as much as you should?
Yes. At least, I think so. I got to Curves 3 times a week, that's enough, right??

16) Did you attend your High School prom?
What prom?

17) Did you attend someone else’s prom?
Nope.

18) Would you give your bf/gf a second chance if they cheated on you?
Prolly not. I'm not much into second chances in that area.

20) Something red within 5 feet of you?
Not counting my shirt...A folder that says "Print and Microform Periodicals List" (I'm in the school library)

21) Your last bag of chips?
A long time ago. I'm on a diet. Don't mention food.

22) The weirdest thing you've seen this week?
Get back to me on that one. I have to think about it...

23) Ever done the Electric Slide?
Nooo...

24) How much French do you know?
Nada! Okay, not quite true. But I don't like to admit to knowing any.

25) Sparkly things?
Love 'em!

26) Ever crash a car, been in accidents?
Not as the driver, and nothing serious.

27) Do you look good in yellow?
I...dunno?

28) Do you sing?
Yuppers

29) Ever sang in front of a crowd?
Yuppers

30) Do you dance?
No, I don't know how.

32) Least favorite color?
That pukish green color. <<< Ditto

33) Favorite kind of pizza?
Hawaiian!

34) Ever had Dippin Dots?
Yup. Can't say I was terribly impressed.

35) Ever make fun of a homeless person?
Prolly. *shrugs* I've made fun of just about everyone on the face of the earth, including myself. It's nothing to get upset about.

36) How old were you when you got a cell phone?
16 I think

37) How old were you when you got your first car?
17 I think

38) How many driving tickets do you have?
Zilch!

40) How many parking tickets?
Zero

41) Do you own your own car?
Yes. It's in my mom's name, but I OWN IT!

42) Do you want to get married?
Absolutely.

43) At what age do you want to get married?
Young. Not older than 30.

44) Have you ever been married?
Um, no.

45) Have you ever received a restraining order?
Haha! No!

46) At what age do you want to have kids?
Young.

47) How many kids?
Several.

48) Ketchup or Mustard?
Ketchup. Mustard = gross. <<< I couldn't have said it better.

49. When is the last time someone deleted you from their My Space?
Has someone deleted me from their MySpace?

50) How many times a week are you on Myspace?
A few. *shrugs* It all depends on my level of business.

51) Ever been kicked out of your home?
Hehe, no.

52) Favorite character on Friends?
Couldn't tell ya. I don't think I've ever seen a full episode of Friends.

53) Ever eat Spam?
Yup - I like it, too.

54) Have a crush on a teacher?
Ew.

55) Favorite store?
Barnes & Noble right now, I think.

56) Have a bestfriend?
Sure do!

57) If you could have anything right now, what would it be?
Free unlimited plane tickets to wherever I want to go.